.......@A wAlk tO reMEMber@.......

Tuhanku..Temukan aku dgn Dia...

2011-06-03T14:36:00.000+08:00

Sedih dan pilu rasa hati ini..tiba2 diri terasa sunyi hidup di rantauan org..tanpa ada sesiapa pun di sisi menjadi peneman melainkanMu Ya Allah.....Padamu ku mohon ya Allah..kau pertemukan aku dgn dirinya yang telah engkau tentukan sejak azali lagi...agar dia bisa menjadi peneman di kala aku terjatuh, menjadi pembakar semangat disaat aku sudah tidak mampu untuk melangkah lagi.......Ya Allah..aku sudah terlalu letih untuk melangkah dan mencarinya lagi..begitu berat ujian Mu Ya Allah...andai ini takdirMu Ya Allah...berikanlah aku kekuatan agar aku bisa meniti hari2 mendatang...tuntun aku ke jalan redhaMu Ya Allah..perkenankanlah doaku ini Ya Allah...sesungguhnya engkau maha pengampun lagi maha mengasihani...

Hello my diary...

2011-05-22T15:45:00.000+08:00

......Being hurt by my own bf again..so sad..is this the sign that Allah sent to me?..that we are not meant together...?.....if yes..semoga Allah sentiasa memberkati pilihan jalan hidupku...Apa2 pun...transfer letter perlu dihantar segera!!!...suatu masa, saat dan ketika nya, dia pasti akan merasa akan sakitnya dan pedihnya hati apabila dpermainkan seperti itu...Ya Allah...kau berilah balasan yg setimpal untuknya...moga dia sedar akan kesilapannya mempermainkan hati seorg wanita yg tulus mencintai dia...Amin.....Asmah!!!..hidup perlu diteruskan...buatlah keputusan sebaek dan seadilnya...Moga diberkati Allah...~~AMIN~~

Where are you?

2011-02-09T08:50:00.000+08:00

I really miss Mr Naizen...really2 miss him..but at the same time...I hate him also...what happen to me?..arrrgghhh......am I really too disgusting to him?...Jahat sangat ker aku kalau nak bawa dia jumpa ayah tapi dia tak nak...then aku merajuk?..teruk kaa?..huhuhuh...rasanya I have the right to merajuk...coz sampai bila nak macam ni?..dah promise tapi tak jadi2.. Mungkin Allah nak tunjuk yang dia bukan jodoh aku.....dan aku rasa aku patut relakan dia pergi kan... Terbang laa sejauh yang mungkin...dan jangan kembali lagi......

Trying My New China made phone

2011-01-20T07:13:00.000+08:00

trying to post something through phone..hehehee..really like it very much..;)..just finish treating my patient..got many apmt patient today..and yet got last minute call for meeting..pity my patient..but what to do..i also have other duty in management side since im the boss for the clinic... GREAT POWER COMES WITH GREAT REAPONSIBILITIES! just try my best..others leave it to ALLAH...

..My tear drop again..

2011-01-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

Dear diary...

yesterday I was driving back to my home..(errrrr, rumah sewa jer padahal..hahaha)...i play my old cd...and suddenly my tears drop......huhuhuh..cuaca yang hujan pun cam menyokong jer perasaan aku di kala itu...I really miss Encek Naizen, how is he?..he send me sms but I dont know why I just doesnt want to reply it..merajuk? Not really...what the point of merajuk?..I just feel there's no need to reply his sms since he always did that to me...sometimes I sent over 5 sms..but he just ignore it..I call his phone several times..he just let it ring.....so, should i say he is my boyfren?..No comment..One thing I knew is that, I'm in love with him..I Love Him......arrrgghhhh...lelaki..sukarnya untuk difahami..

From This Moment....

2011-01-18T06:39:00.000+08:00

"From This Moment On"

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better for worse, I will love you with
every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

Sadness n Happiness come and go...

2009-08-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...its been so long since my last post...almost one year i guess...huhuhuu...not in the mood to post something last time...so many things happened in my life...gembira, sedih, duka...all in one.. Never expect that my life become so difficult..Since January 2009 untill June 2009...half of the year gone with sadness tears...day n night crying...why this kind of thing happen in my life.....Let's start the story..I broke up with my boyfren few months ago...:-(..so sad..but im the one who want to broke up with him..Leo is such a wonderfull guy, hensom i bet..:-)....really care about me and would do anything just to make me happy...Huhhuhuuh...but after 2 years in relationship, i dont know how and why my heart suddenly change..I fall in love with someone else...I was trying very hard to forget this guy..but I cant...he always come in my dream..:-(...becoz of that...i have to admid that I have to make a decision..at last...i left my loving byfrend..Leo...It was really a hard decision..make me cry all night long..how cruel i am..:-(...I fall in love with someone who is actually doesnt love me I guess...:-(....So tired..to be continue..

Tiring and Hectic Weekdays!!!!!

2008-12-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

Extraction!!!!! Fillings!!!!!...Scaling!!!! Argdhhhhh..what a boring request from patients....hhuuhhhuhu...this week has been a hectic and tiring week since 2 of the FYDO's are taking leave for 2 weeks...leaving only the 3 of us....doing the same procedure every day....everyday doing extractions...what a heavy work...everyday 100 over patients waiting to seek treatment....if simple extractions...no big deals...problem arise if 09 or 07 patients...i dont know why their teeth is like a stainless steel!!!!!...my god!! So hard to pull out. Always sweating when have to pull out sound teeth from their mouth!!!!....I need to improve my skills in extractions especiallly in MOS....huuhhhuhu...need more practice!!!!..Hopefully terror lambat laun nanti....heheheheh....

Tension!!!

2008-11-28T06:36:00.000+08:00

Huuhhhhuhuhu...Hectic day!!!...tension sangat rasa mau telan jak makhluk sorang tu.. Talam 2 muka betul..depan saya punya laaa baik....belakang saya...huhhuhhhuuhuh...kutuk aku habis-habisan....sakit hati aku.....depan bos, huhhhh macam apa mengutuk aku...last2 aku hentam jugak depan dia..sindir dia habis-habisan...kaki bodek betul..ingat kan bleh percaya...rupanya menikam dari belakang...

Trip to Gua Niah

2008-11-19T14:20:00.000+08:00

Since I was working in Miri, I got a chance last year to go to Niah Cave's..hahahaha...so much fun but also feels so tired...just imagine, 3 KM walking from the main entrance...not including walking inside the cave itself. Team leader...of course the one yang dah pernah pergi...that was Mr Bahrain...hehehehehe....very enthusiastic leader...siap pesan suruh bawa barang2 yang diperlukan..especially torchlight... hahahah.....inside the cave..very nice...full of paintings orang zaman dahulu...tapi tak sure laa wether Paleolitik or Mesolitik or others...forgot wolrd history already...hahahahaa...lama tinggal kan sekolah... .....Apapun...It was a nice and interesting place to go...for those yang belum pergi....I advice..please go there if u came to Miri.....Next plan....will be going to Mulu Cave...hopefully

My Llife after Graduation!!!!

2007-12-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

This pic taken during dental nite KP Miri. Its me with my dear friend Hellen.. . That I became the MC and my partner actually is my boyfriend.....hahhahaha.. what a surprise......and that nite is also to be a special nite for me...this is the first time i became an MC...hahahahaha...

Congratulations To All Doctors USM Batch 2006/2007

2007-05-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to all the Doctors USM Batch 2006/2007....best result achived for the past decade....I'm really proud of u all guys....wishing u all the best in ur work..hope u all serve kindly to the community..by the way....don't forget to pray for us ( Final Year Dental Students ) ....Hopefully we all can graduate like u guys....

Picture of mine

2007-05-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

Ni gambar2 masa besday budak2 ni....my cake is not on the list cause my handy got infected from istie's pc..so i need to clean it up....so..later on i'll add my cake pics...hehehehehe...

Charile's Attack...

2007-05-11T15:45:00.000+08:00

Aduiss...its charlies seasonal attack..!!!!!..huhuhuhuuh..ramai orang dah kena...include me.. nasib baik tak teruk sangat...luckily its just on my left wrist...hhuuhuhuh..teruk betul serangga yang bernama pedros tu......habis naik blister kalau kena...hhuuhuuh...hopefully tak kena lagik lepas ni.....

Lazy!!!!!!

2007-05-07T07:02:00.000+08:00

Arrgghhhh....dah 3 jam duk menghadap laptop ni...satu keje pun tak siap...tensennye... Sakit perut pun tak reda lagi...hhuuhuhuhhu.......mandi pun belum lagik...I don't know why I feel so lazy today......hhuuhhuh....as usual, I have discussion at 2 pm today but still my homework tak siap lagik....hhuuhhuuhuh....I miss the discussion last night since i can't bear the pain I had.....huuhuuhh...I really had this PMS...when it comes, all my work need to be postpone...huhuuhhuhuuh........but luckily it come early before the exam..if not, my dear!!!! I'll suffer answering the exams questions....

My head is spinning around like a rollercoaster!!!!

2007-05-01T02:24:00.000+08:00

I woke up early this morning...huhuhuhuhhu...feel dizzy..I broke up with my so called boyfriend yesterday.....I luve him...really do love him, unfortunately he doesn't like my style... Huuhhuhuuh...I hope he'll live well soon, and hopefully he'll change to be a better man someday....I know we'll never be together again.....my wish for him, may he'll find a suitable and better girl.....My words to u sayang.."You'll Think Of Me.."

Hmmmm...ook...I'll foget about that....I have a study group today but I have'not finish my homework yet...arrghhh..how can i settle it in this only few hours....huhhuhuhhu....It's about the pharmacokinetic, pharmcodynamic of drugs used in facial pain.....wowowowowow..... Hhuhhuh...very tough subject and they always give me the hard topic...hehehehe.welll I'm a better explainer I think........Ok...I think I'll off for now....see you later...

Naza...how I Miss You!!

2007-04-27T06:06:00.000+08:00

huhuhhuhu....tiba2 teringat kat Naza...how is he....rindunye kat dia...I hope u live well... How I wish things getting better for u...hope awak sihat2 jer...kuat kan semangat...

DeHearty

2007-01-13T10:08:00.000+08:00

.....A song from DeHearty...very nice song...tersentuh hati kalau dengar...especially if it comes from someone that you love....

Kau digelar sebagai penyeri dunia

Hadirmu melengkap hubungan manusia

Bukan sahaja dirindui yang biasa

Malah Adam turut sunyi tanpa Hawa

Akalmu senipis bilahan rambut

Tebalkanlah ia dengan limpahan ilmu

Jua hatimu bak kaca yang rapuh

Kuatkanlah ia dengan iman yang teguh

Tercipta engkau dari rusuk lelaki

Bukan dari kaki untuk dialasi

Bukan dari kepala untuk dijunjung

Tapi dekat di bahu untuk dilindung

Dekat jua di hati untuk dikasihi

Engkaulah wanita hiasan duniawi

Mana mungkin lahirnya bayangan yang lurus elok

Jika datangnya dari kayu yang bengkok

Begitulah peribadi yang dibentuk

Didiklah wanita dengan keimanan

Bukannya harta ataupun pujian

Kelak tidak derita mengharap pada yang binasa

Engkaulah wanita istimewa

Sedarilah insan istimewa

Bahawa kelembutan bukan kelemahan

Bukan jua penghinaan dari Tuhan

Bahkan sebagai hiasan kecantikan

Lagu : Syamer (Syam DeHearty)

Lirik : Syamer (Syam DeHearty)

Check out my Slide Show!

2006-12-23T07:52:00.001+08:00

I Miss Him.!!!!!

2006-12-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

Huhhuhu...so boring today plus...so sad....as usual, if weekends come....he won't remember me!! He will hanging out with his friends and will never leave any message like the weekdays...why its always me become the one who will start all the things...he won't even leave a message if i didn't leave a message or call first...hhuhhuhuhuhuh......I really miss him....my life turns out to be so bright when my handfon ring out and his name appear on the screen....ohhhh dear....how come i can become like this....sometimes i just got fed-up and remain silent....until one day when my name appear online on the messanger than he would call me like hell...my fon keep on ringing and he keep on calling eventhough i didn't want to pick up the phone......huhuhhuuhhuhu.... this rainy days makes my heart feel so cold.......

Just Wake Up!!!

2006-12-08T07:40:00.000+08:00

Mmmmm....hhuuhuh...i'm not feeling very well today...have sore throat plus runny nose...Oh dear..that's enough to make me awake early in the morning.....luckily its weekends....huuhuh.. no clinics....if not, mampus I tak leh treat patient...Last day, as usual we ha ur dinner outside, infront of USM....I ate chicken chop again...last week i had the same menu also....hahahahahaha.. mmmmmm...last night more meriah laa...coz beside me, zai, ida, ghah and ana....isti, dayat n pali join the corum.......we talked about clinics...patient and of course not forgotten the dear dr.... hahahahaha......we stop by the photocopy shop...I ordered 3 books which cost about RM 80... Mammpus I nak bayar today...ntah beraper laaa duit in my saving acount....what else?.....ohhh.. yesterday I got 'akok' from my patient...hahahahhaha...lovely..tau tau jer I suka makan akok....

Cintai Aku

2006-12-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

Dear diary....its been a long time since i've updated my blog.....very busy since i enter final year in dental school of USM....huuhuhuhuh...plus i didn't get connection through my room last semester...luckily, internet is back again..so i'll be able updating my blog after this...well, nothing muuch happen for the past few months....still struggling finishing my final year requirement.... Hope i can sit final exam this coming may....huuhuhhu...wish me luck!!!!..Opss before i forgot.. i've recieve a nice song last week...from my new friend.....title...Cintai Aku by Sofaz... A meaningful songs.....macam perasan laa pulak org tu suka aku...hahahahahaha...never mind... just feeling happy...someone like me that much......

New Pic

2006-01-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

Like Professional Woman!!!

2005-10-22T07:08:00.000+08:00

From the right..me, ida, zai and g-hah...this pic was taken during the 3rd student scientific conference which held in USM health campus of course!!...hahaha..actually we are not presenting our paper...hahaha..sajer jer bergaya ngan blazer..sumer blazer pinjam ni...:).. anyway..we are the one who handling this event!!!..And next year will be our turn...huuhuhuu..

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

2005-10-07T08:20:00.000+08:00

Summer has come and passed

The innocent can never last

Wake me up when september ends

Like my fathers come to pass

Seven years has gone so fast

Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again

Falling from the stars

Drenched in my pain again

Becoming who we are

As my memory rests

But never forgets what I lost

Wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed

The innocent can never last

Wake me up when september ends

Ring out the bells again

Like we did when spring began

Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again

Falling from the stars

Drenched in my pain again

Becoming who we are

As my memory rests

But never forgets what I lost

Wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed

The innocent can never last

Wake me up when september ends

Like my father's come to pass

Twenty years has gone so fast

Wake me up when september ends

Hooray!!!

2005-10-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

Hakhakhak....akhirnye..dah berjaya cabut gg geraham orang lelaki...fullamak...doctor pun macam tak percaye jer aku leh cabut gg budak tadi tu...dah laaa lelaki, besar pulak tu...lepas tu gg dia memang tak goyang langsung....heehehehe...tapi lambat sket laaa...tak macam dr pakar cabut gg orang...sekejap jerks.....dah la complet ngan root sekali...hebat woo...chehss.. puji diri sendir lak...hahahahaha

Poyo Jer!!!!

2005-09-27T06:53:00.000+08:00

Taken during APDSA trip to genting on 4th of august 2005....poyo jer muka sorang2..hehehe anyway..best giler masa ni..orang sibuk nak balik kitorang asyik gambar sakan jer...hahaha.. From the left..Zai, Aku, g-ha, Ana, Nida

Comel??

2005-09-21T19:26:00.000+08:00

Lovely teddy bear for someone special in my life...Of course, the one and only ADAM HAZIEQ.. (satu2nye anak sedara aku setakat ni..born on 2 september 2005..semoga jadi anak soleh Zieq. Lots of love..Aunty..hehehehe

Cry By Mandy Moore

2005-09-21T18:59:00.000+08:00

I`ll always remember

It was late afternoon

It lasted forever...

And ended so soon

You were all by your side

Staring up at a dark gray sky

I was changed...

In places no one would find

All your feelings so deep inside( deep inside )

It was then that I realized

That forever was in your eyes

The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september

And I`ve seen you before ( and you were )

You were always the cold one

But I was never that sure

You were all by your side

Staring up at a dark gray sky

I was changed

In places no one would find

All your feelings so deep inside ( deep inside )

It was then that I realised

That forever was in your eyes

The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold u

I wanted to make it go away

I wanted to know u

I wanted to make your everything, all right..

I`ll always remember

It was late afternoon

In places no one would find...

In places no one would find

All your feelings so deep inside ( deep inside )

It was then that I realized

That forever was in your eyes

The moment I saw you cry

My Patient Have Problem..:(

2005-09-20T18:21:00.000+08:00

Dear diary...I`ve tell u about my patient yesterday...that i Had done extraction before...huuhuuhuhuh...he come this early morning complaining of non stop bleeding starting at 3 am...i`m so scared...huuhuhuh...the nurse call me to the KRK clinic..room number 2...Dr Nejeeb was there...my god...my chest keep pounching so hard like my heart want to come out of my chest...huuhuuh...my face..huuhu...don`t say laa...become blue..my hands..cold...huuhuhu...Dr Nejeeb ask me how the extraction done yesterday...so..I explain to him and he ask me if there were retained root...I said no because I extracted the tooth with complete root of the tooth...he said..it`s ok..it my be because of the interdental alveolar bone were too high so..he said he will trimmed it...thank god..he didn`t scold me...when I went back to my class...everyone were looking at me..and my lecturer ask me what is the problem...he knows that I`m look so nervous so he said that never mind..nobody will blammed u because of the case since u do it under dr supervision...:(...but i`m still sad...well..u know..I feel that I was not doing well yesterday...although previously I was too happy yesterday...:(...

IHD patient..what a surprise!!

2005-09-20T18:11:00.000+08:00

I went to the OT room of maxilofacial case this morning. Huhuhuhuu....very very very interesting major surgery...I hope I can become a surgoen one day..:p... In the evening, as usual I walk in to the clinic today at 1.55 pm wondering whether I`ve got a patient for tooth extraction today. As usual..I`ve prepared all the basic things in case the KRK doctor`s had referred a patient to me at this evening. Suddenly, as I walk to the polyclinic counter, one of my friends, ana called me and said..."Asmah, your patient is here. He had taken the prophylaxis antibiotic at 1.55 pm and doctor ask u to do extraction one hour after this."..oh my god!!..I`m really surprise coz I was wondering why he had taken 8 tabs of antibiotic...so I ask him what is actually having right now...and he told me that he had IHD...which was diagnosed on 2000...my dear..i don`t know what to ask except her past medical history and dental history cause I was so panic at that time...I went to the registration counter, searching for his folder. Thank god...I`ve found it and had chance to looked for it before I`ve done the procedure. As I walked back to my clinic..I met Zenty and ask her if she got patient this evening..And she answered me no...Thank God again!!!!...and I told her about my problems and she offered to help me...thanks a lot Zenty for your kindness!!!...I really appreciate it.. Since she had read something about dental management og IHD patients...so she tell me what to do and not to do during the procedure...Luckily with the help of Zenty and of course my supervisor for today, I had extracted 2 teeth today on my own!!!...hahahahaha..I`m so happy...today is my first time of extracted teeth on my own...The previous 3 extraction were done with the help of my supervisor cause I can`t afford to pull the teeth out...hahahaha...Now I`m more confident than before...!!!!..

Memories in HKB

2005-09-19T05:50:00.000+08:00

This was the second last days of our posting in HKB which now known as..Hospital Raja Perempuan Zainab..this pic taken infront of the entrance to HKB...hahah...everyone brought cameras along with them except me...:p...guess what..one of my friends take video`s of the surgeons there...well...we were the most excited group there...:p...for all my friends...I will ketp this memory in my heart...and..good luck to u all...

New Pic....rompak dari internet

2005-09-05T08:57:00.001+08:00

Dear friend..please comment this pic...:)..I love collecting all kinds of flowers..may be cause I`m a girl...hahaha

Sleepy...

2005-09-04T08:54:00.000+08:00

I feel very sleepy today...it`s not that I slept late last night...I think its because overslept.. hahahaha..well...I am in HKB right now...waiting for the ward round and also my friends presentation...huhu....This is the last week of our posting in HKB...we`ll be missing the surgeons here..hahahaha...well..noothing more what a girl can say other than commenting who is the most hansdsome guy in the ward...( I mean in between the surgeon and doctors )...haha

Last Day!!

2005-09-03T03:14:00.000+08:00

Taken on 06-08-2005 ...last day of 32nd APDSA Congress...held in Crown Princess Hotel.. but this pic is taken behind the Plaza Hotel....before we went back to Kelantan

2005-09-03T02:56:00.000+08:00

Genting highlands...best giler

I`m Back!!!

2005-07-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

Hahaha..I can upload photo to my blog...Long time no see my dear diary....how i miss you...Well..I`m back in USM....hahaha..starting my new clinical year...well..starting from next week, I`ll be treating patient for the rest of my life...hahahaha...no more medical stuff...only the dental stuff..

Discover The Meaning Of Love

2005-04-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

Two tear drops were floating down the river. one teardrop said to the other,"i'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. who are you?""i'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girl go....."she teardrop consoled, "there would come a time when we have to stop loving someone because we found out that they'd be happier if we let them go..."he teardrop replied, "but then you'll know that you miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick 'Hello' from that person brings the broken pieces back...
"she teardrop said, "it's really painful to say goodbye to someone else that you don't want to let go; but it's even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should be."she continued, "LOVE? it's kind of complicated, but i'll tell you this... the second you're willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy, that's love right there...."he teardrop pondered and said, "you know, if i had the letters "HRT", i can add "EA" to get a "HEART" or a "U" and get "HURT". but i'd rather choose "U" and get "HURT" than have a "HEART" without "U"...she teardrop smiled and replied, "giving someone all your love is not an assurance that she will love you back. don't expect love in return, wait for it to grow in her heart, if it doesn't, be contented it grows in yours."he teardrop continued, "she told me once, do not be too good, i will miss you. don't be too caring; i might like you. don't be too sweet; i might fall for you."she teardrop smiled and said, "A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes."She teardrop continued, "if you love her please let her know because it hurts to love when you have to go. take care of me; don't go away because if you love me, you will stay... i love you and do you know why? you got me when you first said 'Hi'"he teardrop said, "you are brave she teardrop, now i know it's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose%

Now And Forever ( Richard Marx )

2005-04-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

Whenever I'm weary...

From the battles that rage in my head

You make sense of madness

When my sanity hangs by a thread

I lose my way but still you seam to understand

Now and forever

I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you

Too caught up in me to see

I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me

I'll try to show you each and every way I can

Now and forever

I will be you man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure

That I won't be alone anymore

If I'd only known you were there all the @me...

All this time....

Until the day the ocean doesn' t touch the sand

Now and forever

I will be your man

Now and forever

I will be your man

This song specially dedicated to you..cicakygbersalah...

with lots of love....from teratai...

The Rainbow Of Love

2005-04-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

Dear My Beloved Friends.....

Red is for my beating herat...To show my love for you

Orange is for the warmth you bring into my soul

Yellow is for the sunshine you've brought into my life

Green is for your natural beauty and peacefullness

Blue is for the ocean as deep as our love

Indigo is for your amazing inner strength

Violete is for your incredible boundless energy

White is for the purity of your heart

And Black is for the darkness I would be in if it weren't for your kindness and love

I Made A Big Mistakes Today..!!!

2005-04-13T00:13:00.000+08:00

I`m so sad today..i've made a big mistakes...i shouldn't accept that invitation. If I know what she meant last night..I won't accept that invitation. When my friend told me that she give my nick to that person..I know this kind of thing would happen...I didn't mean to hurt her....Never in my life. Please..jangan salah anggap buddy, dia cuma nak kawan ngan kawan yang ko ade...bagi aku dia tetap sukakan ko....besides..dia kan pernah cakap,"saye tetap akan cuba dapatkan awak" ngan ko kan...:)...you are still the only girl in his life...Besides...kan aku dah cakap, cicak still in my heart..walaupun sebagai kawan...dia tetap istimewa dalam hati aku...:)...even dia anggap aku hanya sebutir pasir yang tak berharga.....And to you jepun...Please, I beg u..don`t hurt my friend...saye takkan maafkan awak if u hurt her....NEVER...!!

Oh Dear!!!!

2005-04-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary....how i miss to write something inside u...hahahaha..well, i`m so sorry dear, coz there`s so much things have to be done at the same time...:(...As usual...i woke up late this morning...actually, late than usual...I woke up at 11.00 am...and..again..terlepas subuh...so sad...teruk la kalau jadi cam nie selalu...dah try dah kunci jam, but still can`t woke up...mmmm...I got a call from my dad yesterday, so happy..I really miss my parents and brothers..... huhuhhuhuh....my father told me that my brothers are going to brunei..waaaaaaaa...so sad..i wanna go with them...
I hate my brother..buat programme time I tak de...tension....dah la tu..after that they are going to climb Mount Kinabalu.............that makes things worse, i really wanna go...but of course i can`t..i have exam...hhuuuhhuhuhu... By the time my exam finish....they already coming back from jalan2...gerammmmmmm........How i wish i tak yah ambik exam..kan senang..kalau setakat ponteng tu...no hal kot...:(...but nie EXAM...kalau tak lepas..alamat maut laa...kena repeat 1 YEAR...oh dear....

Thank You....

2005-04-10T17:37:00.000+08:00

"Who am I today?"I ask..

And I wonder if I even know.

I know the past has shaped me now,

Even though the past was long ago.

The little moments form a blur,

The times both happy and sad,

All the people I once knew,

And the things I used to have.

They all helped me to become

Where, what and who I am now,

Because everything has influenced me,

I'm not sure exactly how.

But I'm thankful for the memories,

Even of the people I've never really met,

For the people I miss, the people I love,

And even the people I'd like to forget.

For these memories have helped me grow,

They've made me calm, yet strong,

And now there's a story to my life,

That they've been writing all along.

So, thank you for the memories.

Without them, I don't know who I'd be -

Because somewhere among these memories

Are the things that define me.

14 day`s left

2005-04-10T15:53:00.000+08:00

Dear diary...my god....14 more days to go final exam...but still i haven`t finish doing revision. What should i do...sedihnye, boleh lepas ker ekkk...hari ni cover O&G but still tak habis cover lagikk...waaaaa..mom please help me....
Cicak...i really miss u...apesal tak balas msg teratai..oh dear...really miss him..what should i do? Should i call him..alaa..nanti aper plak orang kate kan..jatuh plak maruah aku..huhhhuhhu... "tak per la...sabar jer la wahai hati, lagipun ko tader apa2 ngan dia"..ader orang cakap..sometime friends is better than boyfriend...i dunno laa betul ker tak, tapi agaknye betul la kot...sebab kekadang ade benda yang kite leh share ngan kawan tapi tidak ngan boyfriend..mmmm..tak tahu nak citer aper lagik...tue jer kot...malam karang aku post lagik..:)..bye...

Dear Diary ..

2005-04-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary ..

Argghhhh.....

2005-04-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

Oh dear..`im so tired today....oh i just wanna finish my exam...please...mak..ayah...aduh tak tahan dah nie.....rase cam nak give up jer...waaaaaa

Please Help Me

2005-04-09T20:30:00.000+08:00

Aduhh..tension giler siot....ada ka patut..habis masa study aku hari ni sebab mau buat blog nie... aduisss bangangnya aku niee.....sebenarnya buat benda ni bukan susah sangat pun...tapi aku ndak pandai masukkan pic dalam blog nie...aku try ikut semua rules yang disuruh, ndak jugak dapat2...tension gilak....satu hari aku depan laptop gara2 buat benda nie,....aku harap benda nie berbaloi la jugak kan..bukan apa...blog yang d friendster tu open betul laaa...nanti terbongkar semua rahsia aku kalau aku buat diary di sana..baik aku buat diary dalam ni..sekurang kurangnya certain orang jak yang kenal aku boleh baca blog nie...yang ndak kenal....sorry gang...
kui kui kui.....okey laaaa....baik aku baca buku yang terbengkalai sejak semalam...mampus aku... exam 2 minggu jak lagii....professional plak tu..bukan main2..kalau ndak lepas....repeat 1 year tau....ndak pernah2 di buat orang macam nie.....universiti aku jak....menyampah betul...universiti mana?...hahahaha...semuanya rahsia...ndak bagus..kalau kedapatan oleh dean.. mampus deh gue...

welcome to my life

2005-04-09T17:25:00.000+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to workIt was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like