Tuhanku..Temukan aku dgn Dia...

Sedih dan pilu rasa hati ini..tiba2 diri terasa sunyi hidup di rantauan org..tanpa ada sesiapa pun di sisi menjadi peneman melainkanMu Ya Allah.....Padamu ku mohon ya Allah..kau pertemukan aku dgn dirinya yang telah engkau tentukan sejak azali lagi...agar dia bisa menjadi peneman di kala aku terjatuh, menjadi pembakar semangat disaat aku sudah tidak mampu untuk melangkah lagi.......Ya Allah..aku sudah terlalu letih untuk melangkah dan mencarinya lagi..begitu berat ujian Mu Ya Allah...andai ini takdirMu Ya Allah...berikanlah aku kekuatan agar aku bisa meniti hari2 mendatang...tuntun aku ke jalan redhaMu Ya Allah..perkenankanlah doaku ini Ya Allah...sesungguhnya engkau maha pengampun lagi maha mengasihani...

Hello my diary...

......Being hurt by my own bf again..so sad..is this the sign that Allah sent to me?..that we are not meant together...?.....if yes..semoga Allah sentiasa memberkati pilihan jalan hidupku...Apa2 pun...transfer letter perlu dihantar segera!!!...suatu masa, saat dan ketika nya, dia pasti akan merasa akan sakitnya dan pedihnya hati apabila dpermainkan seperti itu...Ya Allah...kau berilah balasan yg setimpal untuknya...moga dia sedar akan kesilapannya mempermainkan hati seorg wanita yg tulus mencintai dia...Amin.....Asmah!!!..hidup perlu diteruskan...buatlah keputusan sebaek dan seadilnya...Moga diberkati Allah...~~AMIN~~

Where are you?

I really miss Mr Naizen...really2 miss him..but at the same time...I hate him also...what happen to me?..arrrgghhh......am I really too disgusting to him?...Jahat sangat ker aku kalau nak bawa dia jumpa ayah tapi dia tak nak...then aku merajuk?..teruk kaa?..huhuhuh...rasanya I have the right to merajuk...coz sampai bila nak macam ni?..dah promise tapi tak jadi2.. Mungkin Allah nak tunjuk yang dia bukan jodoh aku.....dan aku rasa aku patut relakan dia pergi kan... Terbang laa sejauh yang mungkin...dan jangan kembali lagi......

Trying My New China made phone

trying to post something through phone..hehehee..really like it very much..;)..just finish treating my patient..got many apmt patient today..and yet got last minute call for meeting..pity my patient..but what to do..i also have other duty in management side since im the boss for the clinic... GREAT POWER COMES WITH GREAT REAPONSIBILITIES! just try my best..others leave it to ALLAH...

..My tear drop again..

Dear diary...

yesterday I was driving back to my home..(errrrr, rumah sewa jer padahal..hahaha)...i play my old cd...and suddenly my tears drop......huhuhuh..cuaca yang hujan pun cam menyokong jer perasaan aku di kala itu...I really miss Encek Naizen, how is he?..he send me sms but I dont know why I just doesnt want to reply it..merajuk? Not really...what the point of merajuk?..I just feel there's no need to reply his sms since he always did that to me...sometimes I sent over 5 sms..but he just ignore it..I call his phone several times..he just let it ring.....so, should i say he is my boyfren?..No comment..One thing I knew is that, I'm in love with him..I Love Him......arrrgghhhh...lelaki..sukarnya untuk difahami..

From This Moment....

"From This Moment On"

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better for worse, I will love you with
every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

Sadness n Happiness come and go...

Dear Diary...its been so long since my last post...almost one year i guess...huhuhuu...not in the mood to post something last time...so many things happened in my life...gembira, sedih, duka...all in one.. Never expect that my life become so difficult..Since January 2009 untill June 2009...half of the year gone with sadness tears...day n night crying...why this kind of thing happen in my life.....Let's start the story..I broke up with my boyfren few months ago...:-(..so sad..but im the one who want to broke up with him..Leo is such a wonderfull guy, hensom i bet..:-)....really care about me and would do anything just to make me happy...Huhhuhuuh...but after 2 years in relationship, i dont know how and why my heart suddenly change..I fall in love with someone else...I was trying very hard to forget this guy..but I cant...he always come in my dream..:-(...becoz of that...i have to admid that I have to make a decision..at last...i left my loving byfrend..Leo...It was really a hard decision..make me cry all night long..how cruel i am..:-(...I fall in love with someone who is actually doesnt love me I guess...:-(....So tired..to be continue..

Tiring and Hectic Weekdays!!!!!

Extraction!!!!! Fillings!!!!!...Scaling!!!! Argdhhhhh..what a boring request from patients....hhuuhhhuhu...this week has been a hectic and tiring week since 2 of the FYDO's are taking leave for 2 weeks...leaving only the 3 of us....doing the same procedure every day....everyday doing extractions...what a heavy work...everyday 100 over patients waiting to seek treatment....if simple extractions...no big deals...problem arise if 09 or 07 patients...i dont know why their teeth is like a stainless steel!!!!!...my god!! So hard to pull out. Always sweating when have to pull out sound teeth from their mouth!!!!....I need to improve my skills in extractions especiallly in MOS....huuhhhuhu...need more practice!!!!..Hopefully terror lambat laun nanti....heheheheh....

Tension!!!

Huuhhhhuhuhu...Hectic day!!!...tension sangat rasa mau telan jak makhluk sorang tu.. Talam 2 muka betul..depan saya punya laaa baik....belakang saya...huhhuhhhuuhuh...kutuk aku habis-habisan....sakit hati aku.....depan bos, huhhhh macam apa mengutuk aku...last2 aku hentam jugak depan dia..sindir dia habis-habisan...kaki bodek betul..ingat kan bleh percaya...rupanya menikam dari belakang...

Trip to Gua Niah

Since I was working in Miri, I got a chance last year to go to Niah Cave's..hahahaha...so much fun but also feels so tired...just imagine, 3 KM walking from the main entrance...not including walking inside the cave itself. Team leader...of course the one yang dah pernah pergi...that was Mr Bahrain...hehehehehe....very enthusiastic leader...siap pesan suruh bawa barang2 yang diperlukan..especially torchlight... hahahah.....inside the cave..very nice...full of paintings orang zaman dahulu...tapi tak sure laa wether Paleolitik or Mesolitik or others...forgot wolrd history already...hahahahaa...lama tinggal kan sekolah... .....Apapun...It was a nice and interesting place to go...for those yang belum pergi....I advice..please go there if u came to Miri.....Next plan....will be going to Mulu Cave...hopefully